I don't wanna make it

0217hrs: I haven't registered for the exams yet and today's the last day to do it. I feel demoralized. I feel like I've already lost the battle before it's begun. I feel as if it's too late and that things just get bleaker the more I think about it. I don't know why I'm thinking like this. How much do I want to get out of this cycle that's my life? How much do I want to do something I like? Will I make it this year?

I don't know.....but I hope I'll know by the time I wake.

I need to decide @ 0223hrs